I got a phone call today that didn’t go as i had expected. In fact, without warning my heart just dropped, lower than it has in quite sometime; then i just closed my phone, set it on the fireplace mantel and just leaned against it…
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it’s weird to be in this position: jobless, depressed all the time, walking around kind of listless. Since i’ve been here i’ve submitted over 60 resumes to only receive one interview (last friday). i mean, that’s a lot and not very many, right? as this continues i have become more apparent of my status with others. it’s not that i don’t think people care, but they stop asking. people don’t like to be around negative reminders. it’s weird, but over the last month phone calls and emails have come to a near standstill…
i guess i kind of get it. maybe not.
this is not to discount those who have cared, it just highlights those who have not — fuck, this is hard and people kind of bum me out.
i’m not sure if this is cathartic, but it’s a new post.
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